So in making a badge today, in traditional media, I realized that I process color information very... slowly? If it's a more odd color, say a taupe green, I see brown. Taupe anything dark processes as brown to me. I don't get it. In fact, over the past 2 years, I've noticed that it's gotten harder for me to process things. Some things are lightning fast for me, while others it's like talking to a brick wall. I just won't understand it no matter what, and it takes hours for me to understand it. Or I'll read a sentence, and it's completely fucking backwards and this way and that, but never the way it should be. Am I dyslexic or something? I feel fucking moronic. I'm only 24. It's not like I'm up there in age.

I feel stupid. I spent hours and hours on a badge turned portrait today, and now I look at it and fucking hate it, because the colors look too different to me.