Jesus christ, why can't i just move away from it all and just leave them behind. instead i'm still going back and checking on them and looking and seeing how they are. but i just can't bare the thought of talking to them. i cant talk to them. i just cant. but the Biggest reason is why..... i dont even know why im doing this is more concerning. is it for attention? am i angry at them? Do i want to hurt them? no emotion really pen points how i feel about them at i keep feeling this way. its alike a mixture of everything and its just.. too confusing for me.. it doesn't make sense. talking to someone about it doesnt really help. and venting through drawings doesnt help if i cant even pick up the pen. i think things would have been better if i just never meet these people in the first place.... i dunno. maybe there's just no hope for me at all.