I need to get a few things off my chest and just let this out.
So I gotta say that I'm loosing my nerve on this whole art thing. What I mean is that I'm just beginning to feel like the stress and worry about keeping at all this work up isn't worth it when I'm not gettin the support needed to keep at it.
Especially with my game project. While I appreciate some of the enthusiasm of people randomly commenting and noting me that they are excited to see my game come to life, I need more support that just a few comments to keep working on it without it just falling into obscurity and me never finishing it because it's too much work for me to spend so much time on and get nothing in return for.
If you want to see me continue workin on my project, PLEASE, donate to me or consider buying a stage cameo, but even wiht that, I've been hosed by a few people telling me my prices are too fucking expensive, when they are quite the opposite. I'm busting my ass and asking for pennies compared to what a lot of artists doing this shit gets. If you're going to tell me I'm too expensive, then I'm not your artist, move on.
Regarding my commission calls. "Going to," " wanna," and "maybe" don't help me. They don't help me pay bills. I hate to sound like a jerk. I need the actual work to stay afloat. Because it's pretty much just a tease to hang the possibility just out of reach for me.
I'm trying to make all of this work, and I'm questioning what it is that I'm doing wrong, especially when I'm finally starting to get a good amount of watchers (on FA anyway). I've been at this for so long just to feel like I'm always falling short and just upsetting and hating my work.
I mean, I wanna ask too, what would you guys want me to do? I've been considering starting some YCH things, either auctioning or just offering them at a flat rate at first come, first serve or some combination of both. I'm trying and I'm stressing. I don't have much else I can do in my situation. This is really my only outlet, and I started out feeling so confident just to fall flat on my face and end up with very little to show for. I really don't wanna have to return to working my ass off at a stupid overnight job, get crappy sleep and pretty much fall back to posting once or twice a month if I have the energy to and pretty much go back to being drained all the time.
Thank you to everyone who has been supportive though, I really do appreciate it.