Hello all. So, this is a journal full of me complaining... To those of you who don't care, bye.

So, my stepdad got a hold of my PayPal, and somehow had the foresight to change the password before I could. So, while he can't use the card, he has full access to it by transferring the funds from my PayPal to his PayPal... Or should I say the PayPal he stole from his mother. PayPal doesn't trust him. So now I'm wondering if I should just steal his laptop while he sleeps and change the password, or call PayPal and have the account closed and make a new one. This is a ducking pain, having my financial credibility ruined by him draining my assets through my PayPal.

Also, he knows my new bank account. He doesn't have the card information memorized thank God, or the account information or anything. And he never will, because I asked my priest to hide my card with the account numbers on him until Sunday, when I leave. I know church is the only place he never goes, so it'll be safe there. (If he tries to go there anyway, I can just splash him with holy water and he'll boil alive like the demon he is anyway.) The bank card is cancelled, and I called them a week ago to mail a new one to my school address. Should be there when I get back, as it takes 7-10 days to process.

More about my stepdad. I'm starting to think he's legitimately insane. Recently, when I was talking to my mom about the miracles with Padre Pio, a Catholic Saint, he went in to a long rant, and I'll spare you the details, but summarize some main points.

-The Catholic Church is too nice and liberal, loving gays and baby killing.
-Light bulbs, hot water, and Internet are satanic.
-We need to think like ISIS and bomb a planned parenthood clinic and burn gay people.
-Prayer, church, repentance, forgiveness, and generally being a good and tolerable person aren't what being Christian is all about.
-Believing in Jesus automatically means nothing unbelievably bad you do has consequence and you go to heaven.
-Not being an asshole to fags means you go to hell.
-And most importantly, fuck Obama.

I'm not sure whether to call homeland security or the mental hospital downtown. Like, how could my mom ever stay with a man like him, who hates literally everything about her religion?! He's one step away from being a scary Protestant terrorist. The one step he's missing: not being a lazy fat ass and actually learning how to do stuff.

In completely other news, I told my mom about my gender identity crisis finally, how I'm not quite sure if I'm male, but I'm not exactly trans. You know, because I don't feel being a man fully suits me. And since then, when I asked her to do something to me, like close the door when she tries to wake me up at 6 in the morning, she replied "yes ma'am". I'm not sure whether she's trying to help or mock, and I'm too sick and tired lately to just, sense. I know for a fact she views non-heterosexuality and transgender ism as immoral sicknesses that we shouldn't just accept, and how they need help to be, well, normal. Yet, she knows about my suicide phase, and maybe the recent news scared her about handling gender identity, and she just doesn't want me to do anything like Leelah did... Help?

Now, that's really it for now... More stuff to come, lest complainy and more asking opinions and advertising things. I'm gonna go now, and I'll talk to you all later.

P.S.: I'll try to be on Skype, Yahoo, Kik, and Hangouts more actively in the future and stop ignoring messages as they come in ^^;