I feel like venting even though I have no idea what words to say..

Lately feel like I'm drifting out into space..
All alone.. Suffocating.

I get this feeling I'm being lied too..
I feel pressure to hide everything and anything about me.
That I should always feel ashamed for doing anything at all..

I don't want to be alone, don't want to be afraid of people.. Afraid of speaking up..
I feel like I can't breathe, that all my words are lost in the void of space and time, with not a soul that can help,
because everyone I know is also drifting away, in their own directions.

But they seem fine..
Just fine.

They all have their own places where they know they belong, they are working their ways there.

Where am I even going? What is the point of trying..

I feel soon I'll be forgotten, maybe that's good, maybe not, who am I to say.

Just don't want to wake up one day and see everyone missing, leaving me behind because I slow them down..