Okay this is kind of just an update that I AM ACTUALLY ALIVE. BELIEVE IT OR NOT.

But seriously. I'm not dead, I'm just having some problems still.
I haven't posted any art and likely won't for a while because I'm going through this really weird block where I can draw beautiful hands but I cannot put a ribcage over a torso without it looking like a teapot on drugs. It's very frustrating, but the same thing goes for drawing heads or pretty much anything that isn't simple shapes or hands. (for some weird-ass fucking reason I can draw hands like I'm fucking picasso or something but a 3 year old can draw a human more accurately than me)

Anyway. If you want a real life update, here goes:
I'm officially out of school. On "home hospital", which is more or less like homeschooling. The only reason I'm doing this is because school causes me massive anxiety and depression (woohoo!) so being out of school has made my life inexpressibly easier. Also, I'm no longer required to do or make up any school work, just to take all the exams. Which is really fucking easy. Which is kind of the point, I guess, but the lack of work and pressure beyond tests makes it easier to function like a real human being. Which I'm still working on.
I've officially started lithium (carbonate) and am now up to about 400mg/day and trying my best to stay hydrated so I don't pickle my kidneys. Which is not fun. And it's extra dangerous for me cuz I live in a fucking desert.
I've been doing various things like doodling, watching movies, rereading the HP novels, and finding my own writing and half cringing at how bad it is and half cracking up at how perfect and hilarious my jokes are. And melting over the wonderful use of description in it.
So yeah! That's my life. Sort of. There are a lot more details but I don't wanna go into them.