Yo. Getting to be a weekly thing, but feel free to ask me anything. I could use the conversation.

Oh, and while I've got the floor. Depression fucking sucks. Like, don't make fun if anyone who has or has had it because it is the worst thing ever. Some people seem to think thay depression is just feeling sad all the time, but that's not it at all. Some days I just can't do anything. Like, I can't bring myself to care. Everything seems pointless. Everything feels hopeless. I cannot derive joy from things that I know I love. Even things like hanging out with friends it's like I'm not even doing them. I'm just mimicking he actions while my mind is in a null state. Trying to focus on anything is near impossible and trying to plan for the future is even harder. Like, I've been trying to focus on writing, but it's been hard to get anything out. Everything I wrote feels feeling and uninspired so I just delete it. And it's not even limited to stuff like that. I've been hoping to get some friends together to go to The Hobbit premiere. Its literally only a week away, but it might as well be years. It feels pointless to even try to contact my friends or to plan on seeing it. It's like it doesn't feel real. Like I try to think about how great the movie will be and how awesome it'll be to hang,put with my friends and my mind is just like, [Footage not found]. It's the same way with dating. I've been seeing this guy for over a month now, and there are days where it takes every ounce of willpower I can muster just to return a text. I have to remind myself that the sense of futility I feel is all in my head and that there is no reason to believe that the other guy doesn't actually like me, but the doubt is always there and there are days where it overpowers all other thoughts and emotions. I have to pretend to be alright until the funk passes, and sometimes it can take days even weeks to do so. So yeah. Depression is not just a fancy word for really, really bummed out.

Right. TMI Tuesday. Ask me shit.