As you all know from my last journal, I have only had dark times recently. From multiple family deaths (one being a pet), my car getting it's window totally busted out (someone's idea of fun because everything was in reach but not stolen), to emotional bricks weighing my normally cheery mood and art talent/inspiration DOWN.

I just got a notice telling me my internet will be shut off in less than a week and now panic is overwhelming everything.

My mother is still unemployed due to medical reasons so I can't ask for a loan.

I feel panicked, useless and ashamed.

I'm too backlogged with commissions to even offer them, that's the real fuel on the panic fire. It just wouldn't be fair to anyone for me to do that.

All I can do is crack open an art program and do the best that I can on the one's I do have to do while feeling this way and hope to get enough done to feel like I can take on more.

Thank you all for being patient, and I'm sorry.

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If you'd like to toss me a dollar or two my PAYPAL is: Pandadox@yahoo.com . I'm hoping to close the gap between what I have and what I owe to not get my internet shut off at least. The difference is like 25-30$.

Thank you so so much.

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