I have now missed two cons, and a ton of friends I've wanted to see this year. Had to force the one person that has been keeping me sane to go away, to protect her from what si happening in my life.

For the first time in nearly 8 months, I feel utterly alone. And right now there is nothing I can do about it.

I am sitting her wishing I could take this time to write my stories for the national Novel Writing month, but I can hardly see the keyboard through the tears.

The current events of my life are destroying me, and I don't know how much longer I can take it. The only saving grace I have right now is that my children are asleep and can't see me like this.