Tonight, at 12am, at the start of the New Year, not only am I celebrating a new year to start for me and everyone, but I am also celebrating my one-year anniversary with my mate/bf. It has been a trying year for both of us, mixed with several events with the latest of him losing his job; but at the end of it all, I know I love him very much.

He never gave up on me when I went off the deep end.

He reached out to me when I felt like I was drowning.

He saw for what I was worth when I felt soo worthless in this world.

He loved me when I thought no one was capable of loving me.

He reminded me almost everyday how pretty I was when I thought I was the ugliest.

He respected me when I did not want to do anything.

He did not push me when I was uncomfortable with the world, my self-esteem, and myself.

He saved me when I lying down in the darkest moments of my life.

Best of all, he was my best friend for over four years before he became my handsome love.

Words honestly cannot express how I feel about him. I just know when I sit at work and look up at my skylight in my office, when thoughts of him or his face flash through my mind, I smile. I could not ask for someone better, to be honest. We have had a few fusses and arguments, but we always worked through them. We are working through a tough moment right now, but never once has my mind thought about it ending our relationship.

My only wish on this New Year`s Eve/Day is that he was not so far away right now. I wish he could be here, or me with him, so I can lay in his arms and watch the fireworks in the sky as we celebrate a year and a new year.

I love you, my wonderful knight, with all my heart. Even though I see you on Skype often, I cannot wait until next time when I can hold your hand physically. It might be several months because of your situation, but I will endure because it took me soo long to open my eyes and see that my best friend was the one right there all along.