There are so many reasons why I am so hesitant to get into new fandoms or even talk to people about my interests. cause in the end they all tease me about being so immersed in it saying " you are so addicted"
maybe I am but its like I don't find comfort in real people anyways. so I seek the comfort and understanding I can't get from actual people from made up characters. yes I have a boyfriend and he comforts me but sometimes I find even he can't comfort and understand me the way I want and need.

I am really sensitive about how I go on and on rambling about a fandom for months until even that stops because I keep being told by everyone its not healthy to be that interested in something. Everytime Im told that I withdraw more and more into myself and part ways with the fandom sooner and sooner because I am not supposed to love something so much...

Its part of the reason why I don't Roleplay much or even make characters based on a fandom I enjoy anymore because its an Addict and obsessed thing to do. which as I have been told time and time again is not a healthy or good thing to do.

I just wish people wouldn't do that to me..

It just kills any imagination I may have had..