This update is made with a heavy heart, so please excuse any mistake I make.

I took a personal oath to myself to not post personal stuff on my page, or at least not to flood my page with those kinds of posts such as rants, depression statuses, etc. But this concerns my production of art, so I believe I can make an exception to this oath, seeing as I already posted something like this previously and on the same topics. But for whom it may concern, here is what’s going on that is affecting my art production (and mental stability too for that matter).

Part 1:

This concerns my everyday life here at college. My dad wants me to hide this form others, but I for one, am sick and tired of hiding my blemishes and feeling even more shameful for my past blunders. So I am just going to come out and say it. I am on academic probation. Last year I had two really annoying classes that I failed and one really annoying class that I passed but it impacted hard on the other two classes. So long story short, most of the failure was my fault. My tactics of studying were not helpful for the classes I had and I was supper stressed after the death of my uncle that it impeded most of my judgment and contributed to my lack of care towards, well pretty much everything. So now my studies are more important than ever. If I can’t bring my grades and GPA up I will have to leave the college. So my focus will have to be on my school work first and foremost. This will slow down my art a good amount but I will do my best to keep working on it, most likely at night or during the weekend, though Fridays and Saturdays are going to be my relaxing days.

Part 2:

This part is more effective in most likely a “short” term time. After months of battling cancer my Aunt passed away on September 10, 2014 around 6:30 pm. I was in contact with my cousin who was keeping me updated while I attempted to emotionally support her. I regret not being there or at my phone at the time of my Aunt’s death. At this moment I am unsure how to feel…I am blank now, happy when I am with others but sad and angry when I am alone. But most of the time I am just feeling nothing.

As my art is effected by my mood this might have a huge impact on my productiveness, especially on commissions. So if I am not feeling it, I might not be working on commissions.

Part 3:

This is in connection to my college work but not to my direct studying. As I am in class and on campus ~70% of the time, I will not be able to be working on any adult art during the day. Or on any art created in Photoshop since I will not be bringing my computer with me at all times. On that note, if anyone has line art, sketch or clean commissions, trades, and sometimes requests I can work on them though out the day.

TL;DR version:

I need to focus heavily on my studies, my aunt died and I will be morning her death for a little, and I am on campus almost all the time so no adult work during the day most of the time.

I will be slowing down on art but will still be drawing when I can.

PLEASE NOTE THAT I WILL BE FINISHING ALL COMMISSIONS, TRADES, AND REQUESTS! It will just be a little longer before they all get done.