jesus I haven't been on here in such a long time ;~;

maybe because i dont have much friends on here..? shrug

anywho sorry for the Hiatus on here. :,(

been busy and mostly on Deviantart than any art site. facepalm

well DA is my first art site home. :)

cant blame me. XD

Anywho, updates.

My ear infection is back. if you guys didnt know, i had a past ear infection like one i have now where the wax leaks out of my ear.

results: not drying my hair, wearing headphones too much

things never should do: dont pour any antibiotic in your ear when having an infection even this one. [unless your doctor says so]

it will tear off the wax attached to your ear and rip not only the wax but the skin to thats attached to the wax. makes the infection worse.

we did that last year and we didnt know so it was an accident.

so i had ear drops and pills. down to two pills and i got a allergic reaction and called my doctor and i had to take one day off of both medicines....

if i continued scratching i would of been sent to the hospital.

thankfully i was too scared to even scratch because the rash would worsen and get on my neck and try closing my airway.

thankfully nothing serious happen..

so the infection is back and im trying to get it fixed and i keep forgetting..im so used to reminders from my parents.

and im scared about collage to. oh man...

relationship

well things been okay. had a discussion about something that i am not saying details on. its private.

i cant get the thought out of my mind...tempation trying to take over...what is wrong with me...

im already at a point of wanting to erase all my memories and start the hell over with everything..

but again its me

right now its going alright. there are times i want to cry...and never stop crying...and cut my arms...

i have clawed myself before and i have a scar on my left arm and its still there.

sigh oh man.....

if its over well...oh well....

so yeah how are you peeps?