Sigh
University apps are scary
My friend managed to help me figure out a good idea of what to write, but I'm scared of how everything is going to end up
Maybe I'm too attached to plans and this is me caring too much about the future and I need to let it go
sigh
and it feels like my bipolar disorder will never get managed
I keep having a crisis every week and I'm tired of this
it just feels endless

I realized a while ago that I did horribly in middle school, but not because I was a bad, lazy student
I was in a 5 year depressive episode. I couldn't remember anything. That's characteristic of depression. I came home crying every day over nothing. I never had the energy to do homework, etc. It was never my fault. And people always acted like it was. It wasn't until a year or two ago that I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. sigh. im just.

im just so tired of all of this.