I feel bad... lonely and bored. Stepdad got tired of me, mom keeps yelling at me, and brothers are doing what they always do. I've been tearing up here and there because I'm so tired of it. It's so frustrating. I'm still hurt that none of my friends made it to my birthday. I know I'm not the first priority, but damn. None came. Not even my cousins. Step dad still didn't say happy birthday. Now I have a headache and I'm just so over whelmed. Summer blows. And I don't know how I might be on the first day of school. I'm so awkward and clumsy and skiddish. I just UFH. I HATE THIS so much. And anyone who read my journals knows I have no one else to tell any of this to. I cannot confide in any one. I've tried but I'm tired of being told I'm insane. I don't know what else I can do. Just so tired of everything. Sorry if I don't answer shouts or whatever. I'm so depressed I think I'll just lay here for the whole night. I'm an insomniac so yeah.... well fuck this I'm out.