Title says it all. Note: I'm not particularly depressed or anything, just introspective about things and explaining I guess..

For starters, I've still been thinking about where I stand on the whole art thing. Like, to me art is something I've always loved to do, and people constantly kept telling me I was good at it. I liked drawing things for people, and I kept getting told I should be an artist. I never really had any plans towards this, but I thought it might make a good career path, and for a while I wanted to be a concept artist...until I realized I was lacking the talent severely. Like, I was never around artists before I started becoming more active online, and noticed I didn't seem to be even remotely close to that level. When jobs became an issue, I knew there was no way I could rely on commissions to provide for myself. I'm not suffering by any means, but it would be nice to not have to worry about anything. I do have a prospective job, but I still haven't heard back from them yet.

As for other things, a lot of peeps have been talking about moving out, and I'm even seeing one off tomorrow. I would be lying if I said I wasn't lonely, but it's more attributed to the lack of anything (or anyone) major in my life. I did go to college, but had to drop out due to both technology failure and another issue I really don't want to mention, and I sure as heck can't afford to go back to school right now. I do stress and worry a lot, and sometimes that manifests itself as vent art and whatnot. Other times, I just sink myself into my games or anime and kind of disappear for a while.

I've also got irregular insomnia, so even when I'm tired, I still don't get much sleep and it results in me being up as late as 5 or 8 in the morning. I guess when it really comes down to it, I feel like rather than having a lot on my plate, the plate itself is empty but HEAVY. beh. Just felt like getting it out I guess.

Thanks for reading.