Most of the time when I join them, I end up getting pretty down on myself. You know how one can relax and chat and feel like, y'know, good. Maybe learn something from watching and talking? I don't feel that way very often and it's like almost a bad idea to join one lest I risk my own confidence. I see what others do as superior and that I'm suddenly not so special. Yes, it's crazy but it's a bullet I try to bite more often to try and get over it.
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I feel like this a lot too, which is why I have to keep my blinders on. Last night I did an open canvas with two far more superior artists and I honestly spent more time just watching them than I did on my own practice, even though I'm making great strides as a newb. I could handle it since they're friends, but people who aren't... nah, it'd be too much for me. I almost always need blinders, despite my personal philosophy being that I'm nothing more than a semi-coherent dust mote. :v Biting the bullet is incredibly admirable, but you can only take so many shots, so take care of yourself while you're doing it, k?