Warning! Really long vent ahead...

Idk man, I'm getting really panicky and anxious lately. I'm down to about four... four???? Maybe less people that I talk to on an almost regular basis that haven't declared me not their friend or that I'm not on a break with, and all of this would be fine and dandy if I didn't need to have at least one person to talk to constantly... and the people I do still talk to are often away at the same times because of school, work, etc. And I'm not blaming them. I want them to go have lives, it makes me happy... but it's difficult for a social creature like me to sit alone for long periods of time without someone to talk to. I'm like a puppy. I start getting really anxious and sad... and that probably sounds really stupid, but that's how it is. I hate - no, fear - being alone and it sucks. It all sucks. And I'm trying to work on it, I am, I am... it's just difficult, you know?

Ummm but yeah that's my vent for today. I hope all of you lovely people have a wonderful day <3