So! I have been gradually sort of changing many things in my life. I'm moving in with someone I rather care for in June so that the both of us can share studio space. I never really thought I'd be living with a man, to be honest. There have been times when I was absolutely not into men and not attracted to them at all and was leaning towards considering myself to be a lesbian. I've had encounters with both sexes, but all of the women have been tourists looking to get the girl on girl experience before going back to a boyfriend. I see why there is a segment of lesbians who avoid bi girls because this can happen, and that is unfortunate. I don't think all bi girls are like that... obviously. Because I'm not! I'd be happy to actually date a female long term. But for now, I have a nice fella. It's not super serious, but we are dear friends. I guess I'm settling into being happily bi without fussing so much over what I SHOULD be.

I've been doing less and less furry art and more game art and painting. I often waffle between if I want to do adult furry work or not, always with the fear that I'd somehow be linked to it and shamed before my family for drawing dogheadpeople porn. Granted, they figured it out. I LIKE making erotic work, and I'm just trying to figure out how to incorporate that into my professional work. My former Catholic upbringing did a number on me, and the thought of displaying even nudes publicly still brings up this weird feeling of me doing something wrong. Do I paint nudes? If so, of who? Am I comfortable to use myself as a model, or do I ask for models?

I like painting. I like making and sci-fi fantasy art. And I like drawing anthro art, but I am finding that I really don't like to draw sparkle-creature characters unless they have a really solid, distinct design. My heart is in neutral tones and working to make a good representation of an individual. So I think I will take a pass on those for the time being and work on facial structure and body forms. I want to build up my sketch quality and really work on my tones and coloring. I think I can do this.

I'm debating on if I want to really bridge between my furry art and my professional art. I am working on a game art website. I have shared my shirt stuff. If there is interest in my actual painting-paintings, let me know! I want to get to know my client base better and be a little more open without spilling EVERYTHING onto the internet. I'm a sort of private person, but I like sharing my art, and maybe it's time to share just a little more.

-Red.