I have no privacy anymore. Im not happy in my own home. Everytime I go back I just want to die more and more. I cant leave before school is over and I have until May, and then idk if they will even let me leave after that. Im overwhelmed. I was pushed to take on a full college schedule and highschool at the same time and I cant handle it. The worst part is, my college credit is also highschool credit, so if i dont pass these classes I wont graduate. Im going to break down. Im worried I'll do something stupid and wont have a life to live.
Ive hid all of this from friends and family. None of my friends know im at my breaking point. None of them even care to ask how im doing anymore. Im losing everyone. I cant take much more.
Im not looking for pity or friends, Im just getting this out. I needed to vent to someone other than myself.