"All his life has he looked away... to the future, to the horizon. Never his mind on where he was. Hmm? What he was doing."

This is becoming me fast....I never seem to be able to grasp where I am or the work that I need to do in the moment, as much as I feel like I should.....Always looking to the future, never doing the work that's needed in the moment....

I want to be a good furry artist, I truly do, but I can never commit to really sitting and really working out drawing time. I want to get my degree and have a job as a microbiologist working in a crime lab, but can never commit to studying, I have all these different aspirations of my life, and what I want it to be. I have...so many different deals and goals that I want to see actualized, but I feel like my inability to focus on the present may affect just that....my mind may wander enough to shit doors because I just....can't get a consistent look no matter how hard I try, on the present.

I don't know..maybe this is another delusional rant I have, maybe not...but it definitely encapsulates how I feel right about now.