So I suppose I should mention here as well that I am going to FWA (Furry Weekend Atlanta) in a few weeks.
I will be glad of the vacation, as lately my emotions have been all over the place. There are a lot of artists that have been neglectful of their responsibilities to me as a buyer of commissions, and many of them will be at the con. I am out of patience with most of them now, but I hope I can keep it together enough to resolve things in a reasonable manner.
The fact of the matter is, I no longer feel I can trust people in the fandom who offer such services. I'm not planning on doing much other than hanging with friends at this con. This lack of trust is beginning to dovetail with this nagging feeling that perhaps I am outgrowing the fandom itself. Like, I find myself wondering if maybe being as invested in it as I am is too childish, or if spending energies on the fandom might be keeping me from advancing my goals.
I'm a geek though. Not sure if I can just change the kind of person I am like that. Although mounting dissatisfaction may spur me yet into making an attempt.
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I would say that being in the fandom is usually an around good thing, you have friends that care about you and think that you matter, not all of talk often but there is still those invisible strings that keep us linked. I care about you and I consider you to be a close friend, even if we don't talk often I still read your journals from time time, check out new art you get, and so on. I think your dissatification is warranted, but don't let the artists that you are dissatisfied with distract from the friends you have. Honestly I try do things on a person by person basis, I generally have a lack of faith the general humanity, but that faith is slowly building up as I begin to realize that not everyone is cruel and I think the same can be said about the furry community, just because you have recent dealings not go well doesn't mean a lot are that way, because there are still plenty of people you have yet to meet.