helluva way to wake up man I tell ya ^ ^;

don't know if I should be sharing this with you lot but hell, always found writing these journals therapeutic so whatever

where to start; me and amanda were finally at that point in our relationship where she was cool with letting me *cough* inside each time we got together, cause hell like I've been saying she might actually be the one ya know? and she said it was alright but she was on the pill an' all tonight though as I was getting ready for work she phones me from her folk's place (whom i've yet to meet even - -) telling me how she's been having these headaches and how her 'aunt was late this month' was afraid that she might be preggers with my kid and would I still love or want to be with her if that was the case.

pshh like she even has to ask >.> women ami right? of course I do and would I told her and agreed to meet with her at her parents after I get off work to get a test and 'discuss' the possible future

nervous as fuck but i'ma do the right thing I guess :3

's much as I hate to admit it, guess my shrink was right about writing down yer feelings and all~