I'm feeling somewhat better now. I might as well say happy things so that I'm not a constant downer.

next week i get to be a stereotypical teenage girl for the first time ; U ; my friends and I are going to the mall
maybe we'll go back to my house afterwards and watch mean girls
we're gonna spend teh entire day speaking in a thick-ass valley girl accent and going shopping and going to starbucks and talking about cute guys and its gonna be so great ive always wanted to do this >ω< i cant wait its going to be the bestest i love my friends so much
Oooh! And the one friend who came up with the idea with me!!! Is really cool!!! <: I like her lots. i love her so much. she's so great. And she finally started opening up to me! ; U ; we talked a lot yesterday. and she doesn't talk to people a whole lot. which is super cool! Im so excited ; u ; it makes me soooooooooooooooooooooooo happy when people open up to me <3 eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Also, the other day I was in my free/computer lab period with my friend whale and then whale's friend came in for some reason or other and talked to whale and i ended up rolling on the ground laughing at stupid linguistics jokes and because i was trying a brute-force attack at hacking into whale's email while she was right there and she was cracking up too and then when her friend left whale was like "you know she really looks up to you" and i was like "... not for long <: " and it was so great
i kinna really wanna talk to that girl now. im curious about what she thinks of me now x3 and i want to prove to her that im absurdly ridiculous and goofy. partially because whenever i looked up to people in the past i would be like "oh no i cant talk to senpai because they are so cool and uptight and omg senpai ; o ; " but now that i talk to those people i realize that they're ridiculous too and i feel like it would help her to know that or something :3 idek it was so funny though

uhm yeah that was happy stuff to make up for my sad journal earlier :3