I've decided that I can't be an artist who doesn't draw. So, I have drawn up a budget, and figured out just how many shifts I need to pull for awhile to make said budget, and do just those. Money really isn't everything. There has to be some sort of give and take, and this job has done little but take and take and take... at first the money was amazing, but then I stopped drawing, I stopped doing just about everything, but working.

I just can't live like this. I literally got to a point that I thought I'd rather be dead than go another week without drawing, but the time, the inspiration never came, I'm exhausted all the time.

Funny thing is, I'm suppose to only work weekends. That was the deal. Take extra shifts if I wanted. Then one extra shift after another came along, then we were down two people, then the holidays came... I just deep breath I can't do it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not about to drop my job. The truth is that I LOVE my job! I have just been doing it way more than I can actually handle. Like eating too much cake. I'm just going to try to narrow it down to the three extra shifts a month that will help me make budget, and try to actively be a furry again.

Yay!

I wish I could sleep.

<3 Farelle