It's only fair that my commissioners and people who might want to commission me in the future know this I think.
I've been owing 2 commissions for like 2 months know, the last couple uploaded I owed for just about as much time.

It was a mistake to take so many after I've never done that before.
I'm in a situation that is reaching its conclusion in just a couple weeks. Don't feel allright going into details right now but it's pretty intense and it messes me up. Been having some dark thoughts lately now that the end is so near. I've talked to two of my friends and looked up some alternatives on the internet and it's helped me keep from doing anything stupid tho. But it's still exhausting, mentally, emotionally and physically.
I've been trying to reply to some stuff and do the things I know I would do if I wasnt feeling like I'm swimming in petroleum but I can't handle much right now. When I'm not working at the store i just want to sleep till I turn to dust.
I'm sorry these are all excuses and you shouldn't give a damn about them, it's all very unproffesional but
well, it's happening anyways
After that there's a final I should work on, if everything ends right. It's on the 24th so I probably won't make any big progress on the commissions I owe till after that. Thank you for being so patient with me, if you want a refund I totally understand, my problems have nothing to do with money right now so don't be afraid to ask privately for it if you need it or just want to commission someone who won't make you wait so long.

This was a journal.