I am an artist this is my job I make money selling things to you this isn't just an account where I do things for fun I strictly do this to survive so when nothing sells its very difficult to do so so once again I do not draw for FUN I draw because I have to.

Here is so background on me I am 24 almost 25 years old I have graduated from Butera school of art with a major in graphic design and advertising right after I graduate they closed the school due to it being bought after that I never heard anything back from them I have tried to get incontact to see if they knew of any place that was hiring some help on me resume etc.

So I went off and try to did it myself during the summer I applied my ass off I went to listing after listing and heard nothing I applied to at least 75 places and around 50 listings and nothing.

After being heart broken about it I decided to give up on the whole idea of getting a job in the field of art around that time I applied for TSA I was a screener for over a year and it was one of the worst jobs I have ever had I was harrassed constantly since I was a girl I tried to make friends but each one there turned out to be assholes. the harrassment lasted up until the day I quit during this time my mom was really sick and I had to call out a lot since the stress from both work and that was getting to me I still remember the assholes name who used to do it some dickhead named Joe he was some old fuck who thought it was appropriate to pick on women and harrass them if your line was backed up it was your fault for being a woman not the person who was on the xray who had no clue how to run it. if you were late being tapped off at the exit it was your fault not the dick head fucking around.

After all of that I had to quit this job was killing me literally I turned to alcohol to try to ease my stress after I quit I used to drink bottles and I am talking bottles of straight vodka I lost my gallbladder due to that. after that I have not touched anything like that since.

around the time i quit TSA I started to develop horrible anxiety to the point I couldn't leave the house I would worry about everything even things I shouldn't be worried about I still have problems with that I barely leave the house and when I do I don't stay out too long its mostly to go back to everett where my parents live or to go back to east boston.

My stress and anxiety got me really sick I have been back and forth to hospitals and hospitals and they have found nothing I get sick from eating ANYTHING and I am talking anything I could be eating a piece of fruit and immediately get sick afterwards so I don't eat much anymore.

but due to my anxiety and sickness I can't work I turn to my art as my main source of income but it is very disheartening when your watching all these other artists get so much praise while your struggling to even make a buck I think my adopts are amazing their different colorful their base is designed by me what more do i need to do to get people interested? what do i need to improve on?

the reason I need money is I have a very expensive bill coming into my life before february.

this bill has 4 legs a wagging tail barks and licks faces. my amazing boyfriend and my dad got me a dog to help me cope with my anxiety to make me feel safe when i go out to make me feel secure when people come and see us so i can actually stay outside and see the sun or play in the snow.

the money made will go towards food,toys vet bills, and therapy dog lessons.

yes I plan on getting him training again money.

so I know your there thinking hey how come we have to support you? why are you special?

my Adoptables and art are one of a kind you will never find anything similar to them. I see people constantly blowing their $30-40 on adoptables while a bunch of good looking ones get looked over browsed by like its nothing.

So why not beg your friends for help.

Due to me being int he house most of the time I don't get out so I don't have many friends and I would never impose my art on them if they want something they could buy it -shrug- I don't bring my problems on my friends anymore since they got SO tired of me being sick and tended to not give a shit in the first place.

so yea just when you browse through my page just keep this whole journal in mind

thank you