I know I keep bitching about my paranoia, but I keep hoping that posting these journals will help it. As you are all aware, I am terrified of Reincarnation, I will now tell you why.

The first reason is that I might be born into an abusive family. A family who treats you like crap and or hurts you. Sometimes, they're just asses and insult you every turn they get. While you can get away from them if you call the police and tell them they abuse you, I don't know what to do if they're the psychological abuse type.

The second reason is bullies. Whether they're at school or an orphanage like the albino dragon from The Dark Legacy, they're a problem. They can physically abuse and insult you. While it's possible that teachers or caretakers can deal with them, I always fear that you may be in a school or orphanage that doesn't care about bullies. In which case, your on your own unless you make friends. A non violent approach might be the best, but it can also leave you vulnerable to psychological damage. Fighting them might work, though they may come back to seek revenge and give you a bad reputation.

So now you've heard my greatest fear. I can't stop thinking about it and it's been preventing me from enjoying myself. I just want this damned fear to end.