content warning: this is a vent... it's not over anything specific really. Just rudeness.

Okay, this is just something on my mind I want to get out, sorry it is not art. My words are not good but I'll try and explain this the absolute best way I can.

Being cynical and mean is not funny or likable. Aggression is not cool. I hate seeing people who revel in the fact that they are known for being rude, callous, or otherwise unpleasant to be around. You should be ashamed of yourself if you take pride in putting other people down or (example incoming) swearing in every FUCKING SENTENCE BECAUSE YOU ARE SO MAD. DOESN'T THIS MAKE ME LOOK SO COOL. WOW FUCK THIS SHIT. (example over, ugh)
What I mean by that is people who just post about how other people are ugly, stupid, or act in cringey ways and their 'friends' validate them constantly. There's places of this online, there's small accounts with just their friends or entire groups on reddit or discord (who cannot even tell what the most obvious troll is, but that is another story).

I will say that judgement is hard. I think everyone actively judges, it's an instinct to see something and think something about it- I think we've all thought some ugly before, it's normal. HOWEVER: it is not okay to voice all judgements. There's a lot I find annoying because I'm admitively very easy to irritate but I don't have to point it out, because it's always just harmless junk. Kids make noise/play ball outside my house every weekend but it'll be a strange day the day I walk out and tell them to shut up because 'they are just sooo annoying, and deserved it'. Like what? No. I absolutely do not spread these thoughts to people who might latch onto it (happens a lot to young people) or be enable that unhealthy mindset.

I get that being super friendly and enthusiastic is hard and may be in complete opposition to your personality. Sometimes it feels really fake and overbearing. I am a reserved, quiet person really, very awkward/anxious too and I've been depressed for a long time now but I do not ever intend to put others down or come across as aggressive- if I do it's only by accident. I suppose people think it is a 'refreshing subversion' of expectation to be rude because it is 'raw', like they are speaking their mind-- as if this was some sort of trope you would see in a movie character or something. This comes down to opinion, but it just makes somebody look like an insufferable jerk. I will respect someone who takes their time to be thoughtful and be willing to make apologies. I do not respect people who just be rude because it's not standard. It's not standard for a reason.

If I have a word of advice for these people.. take time to reflect on your life. You will get older. Take time to appreciate people and enjoy things, even if you think they are 'stupid' or cringe or you wear clothes that are ugly, or listen to basic music, and draw 'generically'. It is all harmless stuff, even if it soooo judgable and you could easily get people to agree with you on that. Being made fun of sucks, I know, but don't become what you hate. In general, life is absolutely brutal, I agree. So let's add some kindness to someone's life who could really use it, and allow some joy, even from random things, to be felt for everyone. The garbage only burns faster if you pour gasoline everywhere. Maybe this is why I like just silly stories when it comes to tv and games... either hopeful or maybe are in a crappy world but can laugh at itself. I don't know what you'd call the opposite but maybe drama porn or M-rated-for-no-reason is fitting.

Sorry, this is vague. But I left it like that, because it can apply to a lot. This isn't just a kids thing either, I've seen people in their mid-late 20's who still act like this to other random adults. But maturity hits for everyone at different times? ..some very late I guess? (Hope?)
For anyone worried: yes, I am fine. Just difficult, but I think I will get better.
I don't know if this is a controversial opinion but whatever happens, I'll stand by this as long it makes sense to me. I have a future to let anyone try and change my mind but nobody has tried.