I still want to thank you all for the amount of advice and comments you could give me. I am aware tgat I still have to fix myself on my own as well as according to your advices. I am aware that I still need to read you and assess what you know you want concerning general content and according to my iwn interest, and what you need to know about me as an artist.
Three things that I just learned from Speech class today is when I have to analyze the audience: WHO are you? WHAT do you KNOW? WHAT do you NEED to know?
Up to this day, I'm still struggling to figure those out within this community. But within my own taste. Then I still need to figure out who I am as an artist, so I felt given many impressions from each dyad (me and you, individually) and groups. Sure they like my art style and stuff, but what do I prove they should care about what I like? The question alone, as I can word it to hopefully the appropriate approach, albeit hypothetically depending on your response, CAN be a motivation factor! Similar to, "what are you going to DO about it?".
Another question I should FOCUS on is,
What do I LIKE that others will join me? Or better, What do YOU NEED to know about ME?
I was struggling to answer that question over the years, as a few pointed out, I was overthinking. As time went on, I was walking backwards. I try too hard, that i had unintentionally deviated from the norms of the community, I was almost to be cast out entirely. I've learned as many lessons the hard way in real life, if not just online. But the troubling consequences may befall unless I get reminders. As a person with autism, I often forget why I am painting the wall before the new tenant, for instance; it was all following the parameter, and essentially being familiar to them. It's all about pattern. I still need to adjust MY behavioral pattern, but I realize there is NO guarantee I am going to do it alone. Not without my folks, especially. Hypothetically, if I deviated from them, who's going to help me now? Given that I have little experience with socializing. And I mean LITTLE. I thought about it a lot. Fortunately, however, "extemporaneity", which I may use in comparison with Speech classes (I'll see how that goes), being that which is what I must demonstrate to make a good impression and state a point as quickly as possible within your second party's parameters, came to as a potential relationship catalyst. In other words, a spark of brainstorm to patch up a situation. And as I respect my dad's parameters, so must I to my audience if I am to make a portfolio before I set up a Patreon (...if I take the risk to read the TOS and launch it).
My point is that I still have to know myself as well as you all.
What do I do to prove my creative identity?
What are your suggestion, again?
Or rather, if you are in a situation after all the commissions you have done over time for others only, what would you do to resolve it, and how will you start reassessing and reestablishing yourself before the old or new audience? Simply, how do you start anew? To make your interests clear.
Tom kitty is all pointy ears. :-3
If you want, I can write out a next journal to describe who I am as far as I am aware today.