seriously, i just want a girl that i can love, cherish and most of all, tell her that no matter what, i will fucking die for her.

i cut myslef on valentines day because i got so damn depressed, i feel that i will be homeless when i leave home, i feel like killing myself and i cant sleep till 1 in the morning because i cry so fucking much.

why can't i be pretty, not autistic and more importantly, not useless and disgusting.