It's never to late to get back in it, I just signed up for more lessons on the programs I use because oddly enough....even with everything I knew how to do I just was not comfortable at all with my skill.

Indeed I made it super far mixing and matching, from nodes, rendering settings, sculpting, normal maps, interface but it was never enough. From being super smart I began to run into problems I never knew or faced before, and as mundane as they where...it set me back mentally and determined as well.

I was so used to the toxic punch myself in the face in the early morning working on models, failing at rigging, and so many other things but I enjoyed it. Now I guess its time to be kinder to myself and my limited health. My dreams are eager to learn.