I feel this deserves a journal, to say the least. I'm sure some of you know that I've been struggling with inner demons for a long time, I've been hurt and down for a very long time, pretty much shattered emotionally. I have to throw a massive thank you to the few who stuck around and let me open up to them despite my probably not too fun state of mind. Which has really helped me stay positive. You know who you are. A lot of things have happened in the past year, has had its ups and downs, my happy moments and those times when I got really hurt, which was the most common I feel. I've learned a lot though, and I've possibly acquired a few insecurities because of it just to be honest.

Even if I didn't open up to you, which is very very difficult for me to do, please don't take it personally. I appreciate every offer to help, even if its just a pat on the back or an offered shoulder to cry on. I care for all my friends, I hate to see any of you down and I'm always there to help, be the offered shoulder, the pat on the back if I can. Or simply just share the burden by being a fuzzy bed for ya to make it easier on you.

I need to apologize because . . . well I can't be there for everyone, despite wanting to, and I know a few have been hurt because of my absence. It never was and never will be my intention to hurt anyone.

That being said, I feel this is the only way I can actually reach out and let everyone know.

Many <3's from me to you, possibly a few nuzzles, and of course a nom or two for Nemmy and Tyger. Which those two have done so much for me. ^-^