I'm working again tonight, and hopefully every free minute I can in the future for quite a while. I am officially saving funds to start working on what I need for a new house! Yes, one has finally come up with appropriate acreage, and the house is old, but sound! It will take a lot of repair, but even as it is it's more liveable than many cheap apartments I've seen. Still, that means a LOT of money, to pay for all the costs of buying, repairing, etc, before I can even think about things like fences and animals to go in them.

I WILL FINALLY HAVE MY FARM!!! If it all goes through...prays to every loving god that will listen

I want this so bad, I even went ahead and activated my tip jar on tigerdile, seen under my stream. I intend to work for every penny I can, but should you feel the urge to donate to the idea of my kids being raised knowing the joy of having animals beyond cats and a single small dog, I won't turn it down right now. There are a lot of things still up in the air, but so far enough has gone right that I'm able to look forward to something for the first time in ages. The relief is...almost scary. Yes, it is scary. It's downright terrifying, because I'm afraid it will all fall through somehow and tear this cloud I'm on out from under me so I crash to the ground once more.

As things go along, I will be earning money toward specific goals. Of course there is the house itself. That goes without saying. Other than that, though:

First is likely to be an old farm truck so I can move trash from inside the house out to a burning pile, and bring in materials for repair. Later it will go to tending the farm, bringing in animals and feed...you know, the usual farm stuffs. It will feel so amazing to drive a truck of my own. I've never had one, just like I've never owned a house. The anticipation makes me so giddy!

So I'll keep you guys updated as I go. Should it fall through, anything I've earned will just go into the bank to be held for when another place comes up for sale, so the goals won't be lost, just delayed. I won't give up on this dream. It's a dream that always meant a lot to me, and now that I have kids, it's everything I ever wanted. I want to be a hard-working, strong woman for my kids to model themselves after. This is the best way I know how to do it. So...here we go!