What they don’t tell you about denial is that you know it’s denial. A part of your mind knows that what happened did happen, but the rest of you refuses to accept it, but that part of you that knows is repeating it over and over again, trying to get the rest of you to realise that it’s true, but the rest of you still refuses to accept it. You know it’s denial, but the part of you that’s in denial doesn’t care.