WARNING: personal stuff

I dunno, just, this past week or so I've been stressed over a lot of dumb things that shouldn't upset me so much but they do and I can't do anything about any of them. I feel like some my closest friends are getting more and more distant from me, especially Holly. No one I know well enough wants to rp with me. I've hit an art and let's playing block and I feel like I'm being really unproductive just sitting around all day instead of working on something. My mom and my grandparents know I've been feeling awful lately and they're worried, but I can't talk to them about these things at all. And the worst thing that always consistently upsets me the most is no matter how much I want to have a decent sex life and just enjoy this thing that's so easy for everyone else to enjoy, no matter what I do or how hard I try, I can't get even the least bit of pleasure and I don't think I ever will and it makes sex so stressful to even think about. I've tried everything I can possibly try and nothing helps, and I can't help thinking maybe with someone other than Lurid I could get some amount of satisfaction or relief, but I feel awful for thinking that and there's nothing I can do to stop fucking CRYING.

I'm sorry about the vent art, AGAIN, but I had to just focus on something so I could stop thinking about everything and being so upset for a little while at least.

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