Inspiration Song: 8 Graves - Numb
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfY4VCJNwSY

I guess this is kinda vent art, but also an expression of my character Theresa. Recently, I've been having this constant barrage of negative thoughts and dulling of moods. Apathetic. Listless. Numb.

At the same time, I've been thinking more and more of one of my OCs, Theresa, and the more I thought of her story, the more I felt... like I was passing these feelings to her and, that she didn't mind, in a meta way. Like, an acknowledgement she was made as an expression of my anxiety and depression, especially the lack of response when it got really bad. I lacked action, and suffered severe consequences because of it in my life.

I made Theresa, an 18 year old, smart-mouthed, selfish bitch of a character, about 6 years ago and very recently she's resurfaced in my mind and I've come now to realise why. She's trying to help me, allowing me to pass this "don't care about myself" attitude onto her, in her story, in her character, in her being... to release me from it. Like, a realisation of purpose, that I hand over these emotions to her and...be free of them.

And - a few days ago a band I've been into recently, 8 Graves, released this song and... not only did it strike a chord with me, it made me really kicked into gear this feeling of my character Theresa wanting to have her story written. For me to stop holding onto those apathetic feelings and explore them with her as my avatar.

I chose the name because it was a name I loved since I was a child, but never, ever felt a connection to it. Like, Theresa could've been a name for me, and that was simply it. It wasn't, and will never be. And at last, I've come full circle. Theresa isn't me, and yet, she is a part of me. And it's okay, to let go of this apathy, and let it write out her existence.

I think also, it's about time I started writing again.
Yeah.

Art & Character Theresa © taala