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Life Update and an Apology

My dear commissioners, followers, and friends.

By now you’ve probably been wondering what has become of me. I have had next to no communication with you for the past month, and for that I’m supremely sorry. I haven’t been checking my websites--I haven’t even been on tumblr that much--and have barely checked emails. The source of this lack of communication boils down to one very real and debilitating issue: stress.

I bit off more than I could chew this semester. Between commissions, conventions, depression, class loads, and the health of my husband and the surgery he underwent last month, I began drowning and didn’t know how to fix it. The end result was that I shut everything out. During the week prior, and the week after, my husband’s surgery, I did nothing. Literally. I barely attended class, I didn’t pick up a pencil or my tablet pen, and spent my days in the hospital with him while he recovered. I even slept there one night. The workloads got larger as the days passed and I felt buried beneath it.

I have finally surfaced and taken a gulp of air. I spoke to my professors about finishing the semester strong, am almost through all the conventions I’m lined up to attend for the semester, and now am turning to my wonderful, beautiful commissioners. I have purposefully avoided taking on more commissions (except for two, who came along right when I needed them, and they know who they are! <3 <3 <3 ) until I get more progress on the ones I have. I wish I could afford to give refunds, as I am just overwhelmed, but I cannot. That being said, I have every intention of completing the workload I have taken on, especially the Iron Artist ones. I will not be taking more Iron Artist commissions on until further notice, and may not ever, and the Arcturus ones are almost done (just 4 left to finish). When those are complete, and I get some more progress on some IAs, I hope to be able to open commissions again at a VERY LIMITED rate. Like, no more than 4 or 5 a month. Hopefully that will keep me on task, give me a little of the income that my family really needs, and prevent myself from being so completely overwhelmed again. The IAs, again, will be completed in the order I received them, and as I’ve said all along I don’t want to sacrifice quality for quantity. You paid for a specific level of quality from me and I intend on giving that to you!

Moving forward I intend to be more communicative. I can’t afford not to. I love you all and am so, so sorry that things have happened the way they did. I can only apologize, and vow to do better in the future, and hope that I haven’t lost the faith you all placed in me.

TL;DR: I suck. I fell in a black hole for a while. I’m sorry. If you’ve commissioned me, I promise I WILL finish your commission… at some point. For now, please accept my apology while I get my life in order and figure out how best to proceed. I love you. Thank you!

If you have any specific questions, please do not hesitate to email me. I will do my best to respond to them in a timely manner.
<3 Cynaria

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    Just stopping by to say thank you very much for watching my gallery, and I hope you have a great weekend!

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    Thanks for the follow :)