Art-maker / Sky Watcher / Rodent Enthusiast
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I draw and tell stories that are sometimes sad
Eye searing colours and weird designs are my jam
I'll start out by saying that I havent hated my art for a few years now, if that wasnt evident by taking commissions when I have time for them, but I have definitely had fluctuating feelings of satisfaction. I think that must be normal though, whether other artists are public about the feeling or not, it's what drives people to change and want to grow, right?
if feeling dissatisfied is the first step, figuring out why is the next, and that has been a bit harder for me to figure out, but I think I finally have. I was improving for the sake of improving, not necessarily to make what I want to make better, if that makes sense?
A guy I watch on youtube made a video about this a couple days ago, at the perfect time for me as I was trying to figure myself out, he explains things better: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJamiOU3V50
It's been a lot of asking myself what exactly I want from my own art, and how to style things to achieve that. Like, the way I'd been doing lines previously has become pretty handy for fine detailing and texturing, but not so much for an expressive cartoony pose, and it's too flat and static and slow at the same time to draw BIG, high-action scenes. As for my other, chunkier lineart style, it doesnt have the level of detail that i want for my comics; it cant carry the more real, micro expressions that I want to have in serious scenes
And figuring this all out has helped ease a huge weight off of me, cos I dont hate my art, it's not bad at all, I felt guilty for feeling bad looking at it because I couldnt figure out why, if i was making things up or not. It's like, I kept trying to bake a cake, but i kept buying the wrong ingredients; a chicken stir-fry is delicious and all, but i wanted cake, why cant i bake a cake with this raw chicken, why is all that happens stir-fry lmao
I'm fiddling with some icons for my cast of ocs right now, and scribbled something that wholly satisfied me for the first time in a while, lets see if it'll stay that way...
Joined 20 September 2015