Hearing the other woman in the room with the jarl of Whiterun, Halania had to admit that she'd never felt so hurt before; this was odd to her, seeing as she was bred to be nothing more than the world's play toy, but she always thought Sojourner different in the past few months she had spent time with him in his bedroom. Was she really just his dirty little secret? Now, her heart was shattered, and as she had taught herself to do, she did her best not to cry as she stood before the curious guardian there at his cracked bedroom door. "Oh...it was n-nothing--I didn't mean to disturb you, sire..." The squirrel grabbed her fluffy, peach and white tail to hold as if it were her comfort blanket, hoping she didn't look as foolish as she felt.

Sojourner gave her a curious look. Something felt off about the servant girl, but he wasn't exactly going to spare a moment to figure out what, as he hadn't the time to. "It's alright, Halania. I'll see you in the morning then."

And with that said, he slowly shut the door as the young slave girl finally released the tears, which had been in dire needs to be released.

I know everyone says in their OCs they find a piece of themselves--with Halania, I don't draw her a lot, because I feel like she embodies my gullible personality and willingness to accept some people so quickly while others I push away. That's not to say I don't enjoy her--I just always feel I put her in weak and awful situations, which I can easily point back to myself. And here I am doing vent art of her...heh.

Halania was bred into slavery in the Skyrim story and sold away from her mother as soon as she was 3--her mother was just meant to breed and nothing else, probably causing the woman to die from her body falling apart. Being passed from master to master, Halania grows numb to the idea of what love even is with how horribly she is treated by each one. She never lets any of it get to her, because at a young age, she was taught she was just a servant with not purpose other than to do as she's told for others. This causes her to warp her mind into thinking as long as others are happy, her happiness shouldn't matter or count.

When she becomes Sojourner's servant girl, he ends up sleeping with her but also causing the two to talk a lot about personal matters--causing Halania to lower her boundaries a bit and think the guardian loves her. However, when she finds out she's pregnant with his child, she tries to find the courage to tell him with happiness in her heart only to find another woman in his room that night. She never finds the ability to buck up and tell him until the guardian finds out himself, and out of shame, sells Halania to Tobor. (Thus why her slavery look is different--it's gold and white and not green).

Taking her mind off of the pain, she ends up burying herself into her work at Markarth as well as becoming Wildfire's wet nurse. When her daughter is born, she still names her after the first man who touched her heart: Sojamia. With space lacking in Markarth, however, Tobor is forced to sell Sojamia to Sabre when she's 4, leaving Halania brokenhearted and leaning on the young Wildfire to cope.

She does at least find her happy ending with KuroDeMangaKa's Cyrus, who is a captain of the guard, but during her time with him, she's still skittish and nervous about offering her heart to another man even being in her 50s. Cyrus does his best to open up her closed heart and make her become her own person, but it is a slow process.

Art/Halania: oreana