I’ve been really good lately. Really really good. I’m honestly the most functional I’ve been in my entire life, and I’ve never felt better. Even on bad days I still feel much better than I felt on my best days before I started seeking treatment for my Depression and GAD. I feel GOOD.

I have a lot of friends who are starting to seek help for similar problems, and I couldn’t be happier for them. Before I started I had the false notion (as most people do) that the “me” I would be on medication would not be the “real” me. That it would be an artificial me constructed by the pills that would go away the second I stopped taking them. That I would be addicted to a medicine that would make me seem “normal” again, but I would never really be normal.

I couldn’t have been more wrong.

I feel more like me than I’ve felt in a long time. My emotions feel real and genuine to me because they are my emotions, not the meds. Rather than the pills being a mask that was covering up my “true” self, they’ve actually stripped away the mask of depression I wore so long I thought it was my true self. I know now that I’m not really like that. The person I was afraid that I was “hiding” wasn’t actually me, it was a sickness pretending to be me. And I know this because on days I miss a dose, I still feel like me. It’s that false sense of fabricated depression that is the real fake.

I wanted to share this just in case any of my followers are feeling like they need to get help.