The progression of my fursona, I feel, should reflect my growing up physically, mentally, and spiritually. Shi was created during a strange time of my life, coincidentally when I was a rather dull person. I was in a depressive state in my teen years, as most First World girls are. I didn’t like my appearance. I practically hated myself. I thought I needed someone to tell me that I’m pretty, so I accepted any form of “would you be my girlfriend?” that I got. While I don’t regret it, I wish I had the mental capacity and the confidence to say no when one particular guy asked. I thought by saying yes, I would help him with his mental state and in turn I would get the compliments that came with relationships.

I got the compliments, but…there was nothing I could do to help him. I was as broken as he was. I sat back during his tempers, afraid. He may have been miles away, but I was not allowed to leave my home for any reason. When I did go out for any reason, like a vacation or just shopping, even when I had means of communication he would make me feel like the most horrible person for “leaving his side”. I could be watching fireworks for Independence Day or spending Christmas in Branson, and I would have no fun because he would make me cry every night. It was stressful…and I feel that reflected on the first headshot you see. Dull, insecure, and very unconfident. Nothing makes you hate yourself more than having someone tell you they love you, but treat you like a possession.

This isn’t all a sob story, however. I was able to end it (ungracefully, I might add…) before going to college. It was rough. He assumed it would just be back on later, and maybe I did too, as it has been before. Instead I ended up dating someone else, an insane sweetie named Aaron. It pissed my ex off. I don’t remember exact words…but he made me out to be the most horrible person alive, as usual. Aaron reassured me that it was never my fault. If it wasn’t for him, I don’t think I’d be here or at least here as who I am today.

This is where the second headshot comes in. I’ve changed a bit. I became more confident in myself and freer to be who I am. I use being part dragon to resemble that. I’ve always loved dragons, and with every day that passes I feel I become closer to them. Maybe it’s a spiritual thing, maybe it’s my childish wishes, you never know.

The third headshot represents me being at my highest state of being. I don’t know when that will be, but when it happens it’s going to be a very dramatic change. I’ll be giving the dragon a different name, as opposed to Woofwoof, for more reasons than just fursona change. I’m not changing it now, I’m still unsure of what to do about this dragon form and when it’ll be needed. There’s a lot of unknowing going on with this one.

I do apologize for the long story about my ex. I felt it was relevant. He played an important part in my life, as much as I hate to admit.