I figured that maybe venting might help me draw SOMETHING. It's been so long....
I never feel like I have time, I just work so hard and because of that, I get taken advantage of to work even more but I can't afford not to do my best which puts me in this situation in the first place. When I get home, I feel too exhausted. Everything seems to be just flying past me and I'm not really sure how to get better or when I'll ever have time again.

I do my best to stay positive and happy, but I feel like my hobbies and things that I used to live for are getting farther and farther away and I'm stuck in some void even if I'm doing okay.

One day, I'll be able to afford to spend more time and get as good as I used to be at art again. To be so much better and feel like I'm using abilities I know I have. I just have to work even harder to break past the walls that are in my way and I WILL do it because I'm a very stubborn guy.

Please be patient with me. I am sorry.