I don't tell people very often how sad I am. Two days ago i had a breakdown.

Basically I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am, and that I'm at my limit. I've been feeling like crap for days is because I feel inferior and that I don't deserve shit. Reason why I don't like bringing it up is because I font want to bother people.
Then I feel alone and end up just beating myself for being dumb. I feel like I've fucked up so much and no matter what I do its not enough, and like I'm always trying to find and keep what's important to me Like friends and my job, but I feel like that's all I have And not that I'm complaining.
Just feel like I'm not doing much about either. Like I love my friends but I feel like I don't spend too much time with them, and my work is important and I want to do big things but I haven't gone anywhere with it. I think my brain is just being dumb is all and that it will pass sooner or later.

I'm sorry I don't open up. It's really hard. I am doing my best though. Please forgive me if I am distant.

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