this was originally going to be a brand new ref sheet for lutnik, in full body with multiple poses and busts and all the fixin's but wow i have no motivation to spend that long on art anymore?

so i guess this is like a confession too....i can't..draw finished pieces anymore, i can't spend more than a few hours on a drawing and even then i rush and cut corners so i don't lose interest too quickly. its become a real problem and its hard to finish anything anymore. on top of being stressed and busy its really getting in the way of producing art or even taking commissions which is a real bummer for me

i'm also not happy with my arts quality or my improvement over the years, i have high standards for myself and i never feel like i'm meeting them, which stresses me out more. the amount of time i spend in "art block" vastly outweighs me actually being in a creatively productive mood

maybe its adhd maybe life's just kickin my ass lately but it's getting pretty grating and i might stop posting artwork altogether for a while

so.........just..an announcement/rant i guess x_x i didn't mean to go off about it but jeez its rlly gettin to me lately smh, thanks for readin