I care deeply for so many of you.
I always want to make that known.
I feel it so deeply that at times it hurts.
What hurts is that I don't think I can properly tell you how much I care.
Even just ripping my heart out so all of you can see the depth of the emotions I feel,
won't be enough to help you understand.

And it hurts.
It hurts the fact that I doubt my own words.
That just saying and living them isn't enough.
I'm so scare you won't understand
Or that it will drive you away.
That's what makes me anxious.

I'm sorry,
But I love you.
Because you help me,
Help me be strong.
Strong enough to get up,
And try again.