I'm restarting my autobiography comic. I'm gonna try to make this as consistent as i can. I'm also gonna try to keep this level of detail with it too.

I mainly wanted to do this because I wanna make this a projection of how my progress in my therapy will go as well as day to day emotions or big events that happen in my life. I'm also hoping these will kinda help others who are seeking someone to relate to, because it sucks being alone in some of that stuff.

anyway, first day of therapy was rough. it was mostly the therapist asking why i was there and seeking help and talking about things in my past that were traumatic and painful. Just dumping my skeletons at this random persons feet. Though i'm hoping to get more acquainted with them, it's hard, especially with someone new, whom i've never met before. It's especially hard when you've been judged by peers, friends, and random people in the past and have a fear of being pushed away and judged again. Though I know this person is not there to do so and is only there to help, so that helps majorly. It's just, bringing those painful memories(some i haven't revealed to her yet, but should), re opens wounds and I have only had myself to bandage them in the past.
All I can say is that it's a very overwhelming experience at first and a very exhausting one as well. I was panicking and extremely anxious, shaking in the chair depending on the subjects. Just tiring to keep myself from not having my emotions take over and breaking down in front of them. Though I think not sleeping(being too anxious to sleep) also helped keep me solid.

but yeah.

also my crappy car drawing of my honda accord.

this is old XD