"Could it really be true, after this I can be taken to a place of everlasting bliss and joy. Pain, torture, depression, and misery can never exist there. I should go and take this opportunity I have to go to this paradise....... but why does my body and spirit tell me no; to turn around and continue with this torture and misery. Why?"

I did the sketch for this drawing, a while ago when I was feeling really depressed and bad about myself. In case any are concern. I don't feel this way anymore and I would never kill myself, no matter what I thought.