And yet I can't fucking sleep. I have been sleep deprived since I was 13 I am now 31. Even when I had doctors prescribing me medications to force me to fucking sleep I felt no different. Something is draining the life out of me and I can't get them to give enough of a damn to find out what the hell is actually fucking wrong with me. I'm in so much god damn misery I just want to take a deep permanent nap that I cannot be awoken from.