Personal artwork. Just what I feel right now and last month. I don't feel better. I also have no people in real life near me. Have no one to talk. And don't want maybe...
Because what I want is unreal. I want to be with people, to be loved by people that I love. It is unreal. I have only pain and broken heart.
I don't think that all be good and I find someone...bla bla bla. I had fallen many times. I tired, I'm just here, but not alive. I don't feel anything, only emptiness.
If death can help to reconcile with broken dreams, with loneliness, it is only one way, but only because it is painful I don't do this. (specialist and all don't help at all.)
Not because here someone need me or I want to be here.
That's all. Didn't want to write all... maybe you will think that I'm too bad, but I haven't any hopes now.
I've been there before, maybe not as much as you've been, but I have felt... empty. There was confusion, frustration, it just brought me to tears, and couldn't help but ask, "Why? Why don't I feel anything?"
I don't know what I can say to help, but sometimes it just seems like certain songs can speak to us; like they can speak the words we don't have.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYS5KeYYeCk
I now they may not be the kind of songs you're used to, but they're good reminders for me. Reminders that I'm not alone.
Link
pyrostinger
Melancholy, but lovely.